longest night ever.

6.53am now.
i should be sleeping now.
cos its still not time for work.
but no matter how tired and sleepy i am,
i just cant convince myself to sleep.
im still waiting for his mail,
and this feeling of anticipaton sucks.
it sucks big time.
every 5 mins,
i would check for a mail.
then i would quickly try to find him,
but its always others.
sad.
stupid friendster and facebook.
keep spamming me messeages. -.-
okay,
i sound so pathetic,
):
maybe i dont love him,
but i do adore him alot.
and i wonder if there's msn over there.
so that maybe i can add him someday?
haix. but the person i ask nvr reply me. -.-
sad.
nvr, shall watch youtube to kill time,
bye.
):

how i be myself,
when i dont even know who i am.