l.o.v.e

me too.

2009-12-12T22:41:00.000-08:00

i wont be blogging anymore.
will be writing in diary instead.
and,
*****, more then **

alibama.

2009-12-05T22:11:00.000-08:00

i guess im gonna delete this blog and start another one.
anw, i've lost my blogging bug.
so yeah,
wont be blogging as often as i used to.

yup, didnt start on the holi work yet.
die x100.
):

my hair is like a broom.
what should i do to it?
:?

u turn me on.

2009-11-29T01:36:00.000-08:00

boobooboobooboo.
so damn tired! >;
have to pack my clothes and all.
omg,
i hate moving house!
):

shall update about the holiday trip when im free.
till then,

(:

sweethearts.

2009-11-14T00:00:00.000-08:00

guifeng : sorry luh, lazy mah. hehe. me love you okay? :D
su : i not sad le, cos i can go china le! :) heheh, but thanks eh! I'd love to go
all over the world with you too. :)

hihi.
life's a bore now.
i mean, serously.
wake up, go work, sleep, eat, then sleep agn. -.-
where's my exciting life man?!
i miss my friends. >:
( i know you guys miss me too. )

next weds is china day.
wee hee. lol.
or perhaps its thursday?
cos its thursday 12am need reach airport.
but whatever it is,
i'll be back on the 26 of nov!
must miss me hor! :B

hmm,
cant wait for the mini ' sending off ' next weds.
can meet them before i go..
happy! ( tears roll down, too touched. )

okay luh,
at least i did a proper update right?
haha,
anw, ppl,
i might not have a chance to but pocky or whatsoever.
cos i've just see travel paper thingy.
and the shopping there =
jewelry, and some weird weird things.
lol.
so i'll try my best okay?
( sad, my $ gone.. )
KIDDING. IM NOT A MISER OKAY!

okay luh,
bye. :)

[ pray for me that the china airplane dont crash!]
[ touch wood. ' choy ' ]

thelasthorrormovie.

2009-11-12T21:46:00.000-08:00

hohoho.
pon school today.
<:
lol.

very bored eh.
sian,
lol.

okay,
gonna start a new blog,
so,
see ya next time!
(:

xiao ren.

2009-11-10T22:02:00.000-08:00

hihi.
cant wait for ec to end.
and for next weds to come.

<:

lier lier pants of fire.

2009-11-04T23:24:00.001-08:00

HAHAHAHAHA.
you think i'll believe you agn?
after you've lied to me time after time?
haha, sorry.
im not that naive.
common test score well,
bring me go hongkong.
can i believe?
you're never comtented with my results anw,
so i guess it doesnt make a diff?
so stop lying to me.
cos it irritates me,
and it hurts me too.
i've been taken in by you since i was young.
so im not gonna fall for your lie once agn.
excuses and excuses.
time after time.
you're really detestable at times.

bitch.

2009-11-04T00:58:00.000-08:00

hahahahaa.
yeah, im laughing at you bitch.
for being so pathetic,
yeah.
dont you think you're very dumb?
your mum dont let you go china only what.
why get upset? why cry?
go be coffee shop cashier when they relax in china only mah,
why so unhappy?
its just those china workers mah,
you dont like them,
you think they like you too meh?
who you htink you are.
cannot go china then face black black.
still cry somemore.
crazy ass.
you got nth better to do arh.
go away luh,
work for her lo.
your her daughter wad.
you're just born to studya nd score well,
and to work for her at the coffee shop.
just accept your fate luh.

sorry mimi.

2009-11-03T01:11:00.000-08:00

sorry mum,
so its not you.
its dad.
but its okay.
i understand.
i respect yout decision.
(:

okay.
deslin at my house,
muah hahahha.

okay.
bye.

complain time.

2009-11-02T02:04:00.000-08:00

wah, i really damn not happy now.
must let my steam out.

you can left now cos its a long way down there,

why cant i go overseaes with you?
you said i scored poorly,
and i shouldnt have the FACE to ask you all these.
what the fuck luh.
score poor, so?
aint i still a human being.
or at the very least,
aint i still your daughter?
meet the parents session,
tell mrs wong i'm the most ' lan' among the simblings,
what fuck,
thanks uh.
if i can really study and scoe well,
you think i dont want meh?
you think i want to the worst meh?
if i can score even better,
you think i dont want meh?
but you really think i can meh?
ppl out there stop saying im smart.
cos im NOT.
im only good at talking,
not studying.
there's a fine line between those 2 okay.
its you ppl who give my mum false hopes.
yeah, i said i love my mum,
but that doesnt means i cant blog about her,
and saying all these doesnt mean i dont love her okay,
tyvm,

405/700.
i think not bad le what.
how much do you want me to get?
500 plus?
do i even think i can reach that kind of standard?
i have my owm limits for studying,
and i dont think it can go any higher.
i'll try my best for o levels,
so dont you worry,
and keep your comments to yourself.
stop saying i'll die,
this is only sec 3.
there's still another year ahead of me,
so dont worry.
i'll rush them all up by o levels.
tyvm, not.

sis and bro went to austrilla etc all these country,
while they were young,
and you guys went as a family.
what about me?
genting, kl.
i've never sat on a plane with you guys before.
why is it always so hard to spend time with you.
why cant i have a good childhood like other kids.
i dont even mind going china with you guys,
CHINA.
not america or sth.
why cant i go.
you make me wanna break down and cry,
oh wait,
i think i just did.
no thanks,

dont let me go overseaes with you guys,
still have to work at the coffee shop,
what fuck?
i HATE the coffee shop life can.
i hate the workers there.
i hate everything about it.
while you guys enjoy yourself,
i have to suffer?
looking at ppl that i hate all day long?
unfair.

sometimes,
i just wish that you would be a lil more reasonable.
yeah.
though i complain so much abt all these,
i still love you, -.-
but,
i still wanna tear you apart!
argh!

spell johnathon.

2009-11-02T01:30:00.000-08:00

school very boring luh,
holiday still have school.
hmph! >:

i wanna get out of singapore.
i wanna sit on a plane.
yeah, :)
but dunno mummy will let or not.
or else she has the time to bring me,
):

i wanna go hongkong.
but all her adult friends just came back from that.
so its out,
):
i wanna fo france, turkey etc.
but, knn.
the price so high,
and will be stuck in the plane for so long.
i guess i'm a lil air sick too?
god dammit!
i just wanna relax out there,
and perhaps able to see some snow.
>:
christmas present much?

alibaba.

2009-10-30T23:16:00.000-07:00

everywhere i go,
i hear christmas songs,
or christmas deco.
isnt it a lil too early?
lol.

the weather's kiling me.
and i meant it literaly.
-.-

i want candies, chocolates,
and ice cream.
ohoh,
and mac, kfc, ljs,
yoshiyaya.
and maybe some more chips?
and old chang kee's fish nugget.
and 1 raffles hotel's shark fin.
santa,
can you give them to me like plus?
and i want it NOW.
tyvm. :F

1 2 3 5, hi 5

2009-10-29T04:53:00.000-07:00

okay, just let me rant before i start my post. -.-
dragon boat very dangerious meh?
will drown, so easy uh.
drive car, also will bang mah.
plane also will crash mah.
ship boat cruise kenna also like titanic leh?
everyone contains a certain amount of risk lo.
even walking also can get run over right.
then what. dont walk, drive etc forever uh? -.-
you really dont make sense leh.,
tell you i like dragon boating,
you say this say that.
no wonder the distance between us are like fucking strangers.
talk to you, you also dont care.
say dragon boat fun is a sin meh?
then daddy go batam fish all these you dont say dangerious.
he can get bang,
robbed, or get pullede into water by fish right.
-.-
what the hell.
i really dont get you.,
sometimes i just wish you could lend me your listening ear.
listen to what i have to say,
or at else,
act interested luh. -.-
you very kns leh.

okay. i dont feel better.
but i cant keep posting about that le.
later the blog explode, -.-
lol.

okay, pardon me for being such a childish bitch. (:

the wedding ytd was great,
my hair was great too. :D
lol, bhb right?
the camp today was quite fun too.
a pity i wasnt able to try flying fox.
hmm, dragon boat was the best.
love it. :D

okay, slack with the usuals today.
got crazy,.
then when i get home,
i get cranky.
crazy, then cranky.
later become crappy.
lol
lame luh.
okay, siao liao.
bye.

darling darling.

2009-10-26T01:04:00.000-07:00

ytd was quite enjoyable yeah? :)
had a great chat with my cousin, huiping.
she's 30 plus yeah?
but she's still friendly and easy going as usual. :D
hehe
talked and crap with her alot,
and needless to say,
i ate alot during the buffet ytd too. ):

ps:/ i have a wedding dinner to attend on wed.
if i grow any fatter, the dress would most prob explode.

brought cousins to ' explore ' gthe new house.
and then went to baby pool to play.
ended up being splashed at.
wth, whole body wet. -.-
nevermind, at least i had fun. :)

poa thingy was okay lo.
eat pixxie hut with zizi after that.
ha,
didnt expect to have so much thinsg to talk about.
:)

wedding on weds leh.
must control diet le.
>.<
( yup, that face was to act cute. =D )

im mary.

2009-10-23T22:36:00.001-07:00

watched ' the other boleyn girl' ytd.
on HBO, that is.
its quite nice yeah?
:)

ps:/ i researched about the facts on google.
seems like mary was a bitch instead of anne.
hmm, its quite interesting yeah?
history of england,
im so gonna dig out the facts! :D

ya,
ate alot.
going to grow fat.
haha,
house warming agn tmr,
sad-ed.

okay, this post is duper random.
lol
bye,

izljyx.f

2009-10-23T03:07:00.000-07:00

told yaya and nette my lil secret.
hope nothing would be affected.

Love,
really gives us much troubles huh?
it can be sweet sometimes,
however,
it can be just as bitter and irritating at the next second.
aint love a strange and fuuny thing?

jfkyms

2009-10-22T00:49:00.000-07:00

what comes around goes around.

mummy mum.

2009-10-21T03:41:00.001-07:00

i said cb while sitting beside her.
she just said ' hey ' .
lol.
she freaking cute right.
me luv my mum!

qwertyuiop

2009-10-21T02:22:00.000-07:00

hihi.
got back my results today.
was rather happy with my results.

mummy didnt say much.
maybe she's not contented bah.
shall work harder next year.
cos o level!

okay.
im gonna youtube and read now.
bye.

asdfghjkl

2009-10-20T00:58:00.001-07:00

argh.
my chem fail. ):
mummy havnt scolded me yet.
hehe.
but i think she'll explode sooner or later.
so it made no diff.
:D

maths was expected.
fail until get used to it.
its already numb. :)

rather glad with my el and history marks.
very happy. :)
passed poa too.
thanks mr goh! :)

okay, looking forward towards tmr's results.
physics sure fail,
so shall not carry any falso hopes.
social studies should be able to pass?
or at least, i hope i can.
* pray.
chinese, i hope i can get my A as usual?
or else mummy sure kill me.
excited for poa.
dunno can get how much..
hehe. :D
fnn, lets just hope i caqn pass.
50/ 100 also can.
:D

okay, gonna continue you-tubeing.
muah hehehehehhe.

bye bye.

6 loyalty.

2009-10-19T00:18:00.000-07:00

take a look at my fav class.
6 loyalty 2006.
can you spot me? :D
[ credits to yanqin and mr dass ]

i miss my primary school days!

zxcvbnm.

2009-10-18T20:37:00.000-07:00

damn dizzy right now.
nvr went for poa thingy too.

afraid to get back results tmr.
i just have a bad feeling.
even towards chinese.
im just afraid i'll retain.
and im also nervous about my chem marks.
cant let my mum die.
argh!
this agony is suffocating me.

a parent's wish

2009-10-17T21:57:00.000-07:00

i cried after watching the video.
cos i felt damn guilty.
i havnt been treating my parents with the respect that they should have.
i've been acting like a bitch towards them.
i talk back,
i give them attitude.
the older i get,
the worse i become.
i constantly complain about them.
listing out their faults.

i'll cherish them.
cos they are aging.
i have less then half of my life to take care of them.
i musnt regret only when they're gone.
i love mummy.
and i know she loves me too.
no matter how uch she scolds me and etc.
i know she loves me.
its just that i dont wanna admit it.
as for daddy.
i cant blame him for being so tight with money.
their's are hard earn money.

i must stop acting like a spoilt bitch.
i can be that to anyone,
except my parents.

i love you daddy mummy.

recapping.

2009-10-17T20:24:00.000-07:00

went to sentosa with yaya ytd.
went there for suntanning,
cool.
the cooler part is i wore a bikini.
*thumbs up.
( okay, just puke if you want )
its my first time wearing it,
and it feels a little umcomfortable.
partly because there are ppl around us,
and im not confident of my body.
so yeah.
but thanks yaya, for lending. :D

beginning to love sun tanning.
i mean, its nice,
and i dont get really dark.
hehe.
played with water and all.
saw jellyfish.
its very small,
and needless to say.
its damn freaking cute!

bath and all and went to meet jess and jean,
at potong pasir mrt ,that is.
went to yaya house for picnic thingy.

REALLY SORRY SU.
FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO GO SAKURA WITH YOU.
):
[ i promise, next time i sure book a day with my mum,
and i'll go with you okay? ]

went home,
and its the start of my nightmare.
had to stress on the pictures to choose,
and the photoframes.
then,
it was the positioning of the frames.
[ in which i've done more then 2o times ] -.-
and finally,
how to decorate it.
it took me 3 hours okay.
3 hours of stress and misery.
and im still not satisfied with the result.
though bro and sis says its nice,
but,
i just dont like it.
esp the photos.
its like,
a showcase of my parents,
and not the TENG family.
its freaking weird.
but too bad,
the TENGs dont take photos tgt.

anyhow,
i know its a long and boring post,
so i shall end it will a word.
which is,

BYE.

eoy over!. :)

2009-10-16T01:02:00.000-07:00

exams are like finally over! :D
muah hahahahahaha.
happy.
going to sentosa tmr.
yaya say me bring me bikini.
lol.
i dont believe. :D
hehe,
okay.
im just too happy that exams are over.
bye.

bank rec.

2009-10-14T03:02:00.000-07:00

hehe, gonna do a small update.
tmr is poa and im confident.
sure can pass de. :D
as for physics uh,
if pass i'll go crazy.
hehe.
lol.
cant wait to go ikea eh.
fun.
sure camwhore like siao there.
anw,
ima meanhole.
jean is a asshole.
guifeng is a shorthole.

yuhan, you wan to be wad hole?
<:

4e3

2009-10-13T02:26:00.001-07:00

if i really kenna retain,
i will commit suicide.
REALLY.
anw, im not despising ppl who retain okay.
its just that i'll feel damn guilty and ps.
):

jiayou!
el must fucking pass!
chem also.
:D

dsdiasuh.

2009-10-12T23:22:00.000-07:00

tired.
very tired.
wads wrong with my body man?
i just woke up after 3 hours of sleep.
and im still tired.
wth.
and this happens everytime.
WEIRD.

anw, history was not bad?
:)
can pass luh,
but dunno can get my A or not.
hehe.

Hope can go sakura eat uh.
mummy say see first.
cos might be going Malaysia to buy things,
cos sunday housewarming,
then the living room looks a lil empty,
so she wanna go there to buy some decorative items,
):
sad,
hope i can go sakura on fri.

okay.
i have to really study physics.
bye.

history.

2009-10-12T00:27:00.000-07:00

hehe.
have been watching youtube f0r days.
and i didnt study eh.
<:

( if kenna retain, i jump off building )

maths was difficult, for the first 30 mins.
but brain cell developed and i slowly understand the questions.
(:
lol, but.
i didnt do 19 marks worth of questions.
aww.
):

dont think can pass maths alr,
but i just hope that el will pass.
* pray.

okay.
gonna ' study ' for history.
bye.
:D

condo.

2009-10-11T00:47:00.000-07:00

saw some ' ang moh ' by the pool in my new house.
they are damn freaking hot!
they are way better then the guys in our school -.-
lol.

anw, maths tmr,
havnt study.
it spells s,h,i,t
D:

okay,
bye.

l.o.v.e

2009-10-09T05:34:00.000-07:00

listening to these songs,
looking back at the diary i used to write when we're together.
its just too much.
i cant pretend as if nth happened.

pissed.

2009-10-09T04:06:00.000-07:00

long story cut short,
i fucking hate my life.
my birth have been a total mistake.
i hate myself,
and everything around me,
i guess everyone feels the same way too.
HA.

when can i ever find someone that can truely understands me,
how i feel, and knows my inner thoughts without having me telling them.
sighs.

cant take my mind off you.

2009-10-07T05:22:00.000-07:00

THE BLOWER'S DAUGHTER.

this song somehows depicts how im feeling how. D:

pepsi ad.

2009-10-07T02:14:00.000-07:00

amazing beatiful.

lurve.

2009-10-06T06:04:00.000-07:00

the feeling could never be retrieved once its lost.

i thought the one who knew me best was you,
how wrong i was.
it hurts alot,
and i guess,
it wont make a difference anymore.

eoy.

2009-10-03T20:57:00.000-07:00

sad.
study le still dunno anything.
its really very irritating,
and it piss me off.
worried at the same time,
as eoy is 2 days away.
-.-

love the swensens experience with mummy.
haha.
find their ice cream rather average though.
except.
for their chendol and lime sherbet flavor.
its heavenly.
:D
[ anw, nvr eat ice cream at plus.
it give you trhe chills ; literally ]

okay,
gonna study now.
bye.

I FUCKING HOPE I WILL PASS.
AND DO NOT DISSPPOINTED MY MUM.
HEHEHEEH.

chemistry.

2009-10-02T23:31:00.000-07:00

have wasted alot of time on stupid donut.
):
have to go study now.
guess i wont update anymore.
have to study!
:D
okay,
bye,

kfc.

2009-09-30T06:00:00.000-07:00

went to cqm's kfc minutes ago.
wanted to buy snackers to eat.
ordered.
'sorry miss, you have to wait for another 15 mins for the crispy chicken'
'nevermind, i'll have the winglets '
' sorry, you'll have to wait for 10 mins '
' original ? '
' giggling, 5 mins miss '
NEVERMIND, ITS OKAY. :D

thanks god for helping me,
save money and save unwanted fats.
hehe.

useless

2009-09-30T00:44:00.000-07:00

mummy is very emo-ish nowadays.
):
bro made her more sad.
and even cry.
good one brother. -.-
bro shouted at her.
and i guess mummy was quite upset over it,
i mean,
she dotes on him the most.
exams coming and all this happpen,
):

me taught yuhan and azizi poa.
i feel so proud ya!
:)
heh.

okay. bye.

cowgirl.

2009-09-29T02:52:00.000-07:00

mummy told me things that make me wanna cry.
she did not scold me.
but yeah,
it somehow moved me.
i feel as if i have been cheating all time long.
):

class was okay.
was being made fun of.
-.-
damn you guys.
HAHAAAHAH.

buckup.

2009-09-28T04:25:00.000-07:00

somehow, i feel that,
i have let my mother down.
by alot alot alot.
the only solution,
is to score well.
or i should say,
at the very least,
have a pass.

i hope i can score well.
and i want to.
but there's always a fear in my heart.
i have no idea why.
whenever im getting to study seriously,
my heart will tell me not to.
' jiahui, watch youtube luh '
' jiahui, play the games on fb luh '
its very disturbing to me that,
i always give in to those thoughts.
i feel so useless.

today,
i want to make my mum proud.
i wan to score well in the eoy.

maths=b3
chem=a2
phy=b3
maths=b3
cl=a1
el=b3
poa=b3
fnn=a2
ss=a1
history=a1

i set up these goals,
because i know i can do it,
i can a chieve those results,
provided if i work hard.
and not just crap here.

i must do it.
i musnt let mummy down agn.
):

irresponsible.

2009-09-28T01:06:00.000-07:00

damn pissed off.
why do i have such an irresponsible maid.
i dont undersatand.
leave us fending ourself for 6 days.
what will happen to us then?
pregnant.
yeah, its tough.
but going off ealier bercause of a cheaper air ticket?
its nonsense.
nobody scolded her when we found that she as pregnent.
we ask her eat more.
do finish work, go rest.
then how what?
leave us before the new maid arrive?
wtf uh.
nevermind.
no one will understand my feelings.
ppl might find me petty,
or being a total bitch to my maid.
but no one knows the full story.
so dont judge me because of this.
tyvm.

okay,
i feel better after letting my anger out.

thanks mrs wee for your understanding.
hehe.
and time spent at kfc was preety fun too.

okay,
gonna start revision alr.
gonna mug like hell.
-.-

maybe i like you,
maybe i dont.

heheheh.

2009-09-26T18:01:00.000-07:00

yin zhi hou so handsome uh.
hehe.
going mad.

jj.

2009-09-26T03:49:00.000-07:00

i miss you.
i miss the times we used to be together,
the laughter,
looking at your photos,
i feel sad.
cos i finally knew,
how well we could have been.

( and no, not talking abt ch. )

ill.

2009-09-26T01:54:00.000-07:00

hello.
i miss the vegetable soup from pizzi hut. ):

starting to feel ill.
dunno why.
woke up being pissed today.
with no reasons.
and i'm still feeling all sucky right now.
):

doing the fnn ta and research yet again,
as i've lost it.
i've run out of ideas.
and it doesnt help when i feel so tired all the time.
no matter how much i sleep,
i'll still feel tired,
what's the problem?
it feels horrible.
):

i wanna say this to 2 guys.
she dont you wan alr,
so just give it up.
make your life and hers easier by doing so.
there's no point crying over spilled milk.
take cares bah.

pizza hut.

2009-09-25T04:24:00.000-07:00

love today's pe lesson.
because there's no pe lesson!
hehe.
me, yee huey, kinjie, yuhan, jean and gui feng,
was playing mental games?
concentration, chop chilli cran and the jacky gun?
fun. :D

after sch went to pizza hut.
with azizi, jean and guifeng.
hehe,
before that,
had a misunderstanding with munting,
and it was damn embarrasssing. -.-
okay, will only reply when i hear my name next time.
(:

pizzi hut was great okay!
the crust was god damn crispy.
and the hotdog is nice. ^^
my order was rather ' interesting '
i bet the waitress would be thinking:
' you might as well dont eat. -.- '
wan to know my order?
bbq sausage,
WITHOUT CHICKEN OINION, CAPSI, AND CHEESE.
yeah.
i think i freaked her out.
cos her response was,
' NO CHEESE? ~ '
and her facial expressions had clearly betrayed her thoughts.
anw.
love it.
( though there's still cheese. -.- )
hehe.

ruhs home for tuition.
and today's lesson was tortue.
cos i didnt understand.):
and eoy is coming!
WTF.
):

im beginning to dislike you more and more each day.

hungry.

2009-09-24T00:23:00.000-07:00

not hungry,
but i still wanna eat. ):
lol, okay.
shant crap.
uh, was huminilated in assembly today.
( to me its very serious okay. )
then accidentally touched k's _.
LOL.
btw, its soft?
haha. :>

fnn was not as bad as i expected it to be.
mrs wee, tyvm. :D

after sch while walking bac,
saw ivan.
and he told me sth.
kinda shocking,
lol.
( ivan lim, you really not lying?! )

okay,
yeah,
i was dumb.
but that was before.
i would never let you hurt me anymore.

ahhh.

2009-09-23T04:37:00.000-07:00

OH ME GOSH.

my left leg and my right leg are unequal!
):
the left one is fatter.
freaker much?
):

beatles.

2009-09-23T02:09:00.000-07:00

talk with yuhan was funny!
secret uh,
i dont tell, you also dont tell. :B

fnn was ):
i think i'll fail?
nvm,
i give up.

gonna stop slcking soon,
and try to use the com as lil as possible.
okay,
bye.

LOVE LOVE LOVE.

busy.

2009-09-22T02:50:00.000-07:00

nusy watching videos nowadays,
haha.
okay,
gonna prepare well for eoy too.
bye.

hari yaya.

2009-09-19T17:18:00.000-07:00

bought some levi shirts ytd.
there's offer. ^^
and some pressies for sis and rose.
hope they like it.
:D

mummy bringing me to cqm later.
hehe.
gonna suck her money dry latta.
muah hehehehehe.
tmr goign to liyana house.
and meet guifeng, gwen and jieqi.
catn wait.
^^

jerk- off/
bye,

city sqare mall.

2009-09-18T22:30:00.000-07:00

hello.
^^
might be going city square mall later.
cant wait.
:D

MUMMY PROMISED ME A SHOPPING SPREE.\
MUAH HAHAHAHAAHAH.
:B

sorry.

2009-09-18T18:42:00.000-07:00

im gonna miss my maid damn much when she goes bac.
so what if she;s damn noisy?
so what is she'll wake you up middle in the night to ask a question?
so whay if she always pronounce my name wrongly.

no matter what,
i'll still miss her.
even if i've scolded her alot of times,
make her cry,
and almost beat her.
i still love her alot.
and that's sth i've always tried to deny.
i love her alot.
she's alr like a sister to me.
i cried infront of her tons of times.
she knows the true me,
which many of ppl dont.

i cried when she talked with me just now.
cos i cant imagine how much i'll miss her when she's gone.
i'm always qui in xin ruan towards her.
no mateer how many time i tell gf and yuhan etc,
how lousy and how irritating my maid is,
inside my heart,
i still really like her.
cos she's like my sister alr.

okay, i dont emo alr.
bye.

i've always love you and i will always do.

nco.

2009-09-18T05:08:00.001-07:00

just came bac from ps.
hmm,
sch was okay.
was being laughed at,
cos i misunderstood 'b' for bee.
lol.
me equal dumb,
(:

np was oaky bah.
very tiring,
but i still like it.
HAHA.
a cadet sibei cute.
hahas.
beginning dont like them,
cos they damn bad. -.-
but in the end,
i still take soft drinks from them.
haha.
the fnn green apple thingy?
HAHA.
thanks okay!
:)
* he still thank me when being dismissed,
but i dunno why *
haha.
my face was pretty black in the middle,
cos i was damn tired.
and still have to wear the damn poncho.
damn fugly.
):

okay, waiting for my yamo yogurt from sis.
hehe.
tne take home pack.
muah ahahahahah.
HAPPY~
^^

bye,
:D

i cant take my eyes off you.

salmon.

2009-09-17T02:05:00.000-07:00

hello.
fnn thingy was okay.
was overwhelmed with joy when peeps said my salmon was nice.
* tons of happy face *
^^
thanks su, who kept eating.
its a good thing,
means my salmon is nice,
thats why she keep eating.
HAHA.

kfc with yuhan and gf.

bye bye.

babies.

2009-09-16T02:00:00.000-07:00

hello.
bad news.
my maid is having a baby in her tummy.
appearently.
her bf came to spore during her bdae.
and he fucked her,
when she told me philiponos are not supposed to do that.
lier much?
and she told me she's celebrating her bdae with her best friend,
from phil.
instead, its her bf. -.-
lie to me for what.
you tell me truth maybe i still can help you right.
now she might be going bac.
and im sure if i should be happy or sad.

fnn practical tmr.
and im alr starting to get unlucky,
i left my recipes etc at sch.
wth?
and there's also a list of things i've yet to buy.
im gonna be a dead piece of meat tmr,
:)
rofl.
wanna thank gm for helping me make peel the prawns,
muah hahhhaha.
tyvm. ^^
hope everytime goes well tmr.
oh well.
its all up to fate right?
:)
gonna buy my 'ingredients' alr.
bye.

toblerone white. :)

2009-09-15T05:31:00.000-07:00

suddenly have urge to blog.
wow.
my blogging bug is back.
yay me.

have been sleeping for a few hours,
and thus,
going to study cum do hw now.
sad.
have no confidence in scoring well.
so have to pay more attention alr.
can i?
lol.

so much more to say.
but lazy to type,
oh well.
shall do my cl now then.
ciaos.

i still think we stand a chance.

bye,
jackass-es.

curry potato.

2009-09-15T01:49:00.000-07:00

hehe.
ate maggi at superstar just now.
happy.
vanilla oreo sucked.
):
sorry yuhan,
dont make fun of you alr okay?
promise.
:)
skirt damn hard to fine.
sad.
damn hotel attachment.
HAHA.

tjh.

2009-09-12T23:06:00.000-07:00

lost my blogging bug.
bye.

.

2009-09-11T22:25:00.000-07:00

tired.
):

peach.

2009-09-10T22:51:00.000-07:00

yay.
ate yami yogurt.
happy.
(:

oral was bad. ):
sad sad sad.
and

later still have to work.
):

food.

2009-09-10T03:28:00.001-07:00

i've said it tons of time before.
today will be the last day.
no fatso allowed.

yaya.

2009-09-10T01:12:00.000-07:00

just came back from yiyi house.
i miss her.
):

sexbands.

2009-09-09T00:59:00.000-07:00

hello.
currently at nanny's house.
(:
love love.

tired.

2009-09-07T03:55:00.000-07:00

i just need someone,
how hard can that be.

children.

2009-09-05T16:42:00.000-07:00

one thing i love about children,
is their innocence.
they never ask for much,
and would be extremely overjoyed if they received any presents.
not like us,
who constantly ask for so many.
a child is already contented, to have a simple gift,
a ballon,
a candy,
chocolates,
or any cute ketchains.
you would see them smile all day.
its really very sweet.
and somehow,
the scence always touched my heart.

popping out.

2009-09-04T03:47:00.000-07:00

my bro had a new mac book.
jealous,
damn jealous.
):

crashes.

2009-09-03T22:24:00.000-07:00

i get a draedful feeling when i reached home today.
mummy not feeling well.
daddy also.
dunno wad to do.
im out of ideas.
i dare not talk much,
in fear that i'd say sth wrong.
stressed out.

jail.

2009-09-03T04:29:00.001-07:00

6 months.

happier times.

2009-09-03T03:01:00.001-07:00

well, he didnt reply youtube mail.
but he did reply to my another mail. :)
haha!
happy.

tears.

2009-09-03T01:33:00.001-07:00

sth bad happened.
family problems.
mummy be strong.
it tears me to see you like that.
):
i'll work hard for you,
love you mummy.

touched.

2009-09-02T05:36:00.000-07:00

damn touching.

ps.

2009-09-02T02:34:00.000-07:00

yoshinoya at ps.
settle for dinner.
sad might be the only world to describe my feeling now.
bye,

movies.

2009-08-31T18:12:00.000-07:00

just watched a movie called
' Bicentennial Man'
nice, and damn touching!
(:

i should have known.

2009-08-31T17:05:00.000-07:00

sad.
sad.
sad.
):

and, dreams do lie.
):

you bring me down.

2009-08-31T04:43:00.000-07:00

had chem tuition.
like the teacher. :)
she says sth that makes me laugh.
haha.
( one of the things she said,
you're a good girl. )
aww, ty. :)
but i doubt she'll still think that way when she sees me crazy.
haha.
okay,
bye.

sadden.

2009-08-30T23:35:00.000-07:00

maybe i should just give up?
i dunno.

rain drops.

2009-08-29T21:38:00.000-07:00

current mood : emo-lish.
still waiting for his reply,
cum email add. ):
maybe he have decided to go back on his words?
or is he really not free?
jiahui, you're really so dumb to like someone you dont even know.
however, whenever i see him,
i feel as if i've known him for a very long time.
its as if we are friends for a very long time.
strange isnt it?
his voice truely captivates my soul,
and the smile on his face melts my heart.
i feel so pathetic.
why am i even feeling this way.
i cant explain or understand either.
i just feel so useless.
why am i even liking someone who is across the globe,
and might be even attached right now.
and even if his single,
it doesnt means i'll stand a chance as well.
my whole mind is filled with his voice and images,
god.
im drowning.

2.44pm.

i know ppl will think im mad when i say this,
but yes,
i know what this feeling is.
thus, im not giving up.
for the last few minutes,
i thought i was dumb,
liking someone far far away.
but hey,
now he at least knows of my existance.
and so,
im not giving up.
im not giving up tills my hearts allows me to.
so what if it sounds dumb?
i know my friends will be thinking otherwise,
but yeah. not giving up.

' i know everything changes.
all the cities and faces.
but i know how i feel about you now.

there's a mountain between us.
but there's one thing im sure of.
that i know how i feel about you.

and there's no moving on.
cause i know you're the one.
and i cant be without you now. '

so yeah,
it have took me a long time to forget ex.
so now for anthony,
im not gonna give up.
ppl sacrifice tons of things for their goals, their dreams.
and im doing it for love,
he might not like me.
but im already contented that me knows there's someone called jiahui on earth.
im gonna wait for his repll no matter what.
and no matter what my friends say,
im not gona let so.
cos i've never felt this way before.
a feeling that makes me go crazy.
i know everything sounds insane,
and even creepy to some extend.
but im not giving up.
and no,
im not a stalker. -.-

loves.

longest night ever.

2009-08-29T15:52:00.000-07:00

6.53am now.
i should be sleeping now.
cos its still not time for work.
but no matter how tired and sleepy i am,
i just cant convince myself to sleep.
im still waiting for his mail,
and this feeling of anticipaton sucks.
it sucks big time.
every 5 mins,
i would check for a mail.
then i would quickly try to find him,
but its always others.
sad.
stupid friendster and facebook.
keep spamming me messeages. -.-
okay,
i sound so pathetic,
):
maybe i dont love him,
but i do adore him alot.
and i wonder if there's msn over there.
so that maybe i can add him someday?
haix. but the person i ask nvr reply me. -.-
sad.
nvr, shall watch youtube to kill time,
bye.
):

how i be myself,
when i dont even know who i am.

anxious.

2009-08-29T03:58:00.000-07:00

meeting for anthony's email add.
please reply faster.
):

omfg.

2009-08-28T22:29:00.000-07:00

oh my fucking god!
im about to add my baby on facebook!
nobody will know how happy i am okay?! :)
okay, its like this.
i have a youtube account, and he has one too.
(a place where he uploads himself singing. :) )
then i subscribe to him.
and added him as a friend.
he accepted,
then i send him a message using youtube.
asking if i can add him on facebook.
he replied.
' no problem, facebook me. =D '
muah ahahaahahah.
JEANETE SIM.
WHO SAYS HE DOESNT KNOW OF MY EXISTANCE?!
HE KNOWS JIAHUI EXIST NOW!.
:)
im overwhelmed with joy now.
yuahn, your yin zhihou dont knwo you,
but my anthony know me eh.
muah hahahahah.
love love.
he' so good lor.
letting me probe inside his private life.
hahas, cos theres bound to be alot of his personal stuff there.
like his photos and imformation etc?
i know anyone would do the same too,
allowing someone to add them on facebook.
but hey,
this means alot to me.
seriously, i've never felt so excited and joyful before.
even though we might never be together,
but at least he'll knwo me of my existance,
and as a fan and friend.
love anthony!

( hope i dont scare him though. haha! )

:) ^^ :] :} :>
( inserts tons and billions of smiley faces! )

confused.

2009-08-28T21:24:00.000-07:00

why do ppl like to stare hard at me?
-.-
not as if im running naked right,
weird ppl.
stare stare stare.
i feel very uneasy one leh.
i also not chio bu. -.-
wan stare go sentosa stare at bikini gals luh, -.-
really dont understand what they're thinking.
someone enlighten me please?
lol.
):

creme.

2009-08-28T17:27:00.000-07:00

feels like eating alot of food now.
):

anw, prettiest friend,
by jason marz. :)

broken pieces.

2009-08-28T05:22:00.000-07:00

everytime i set my hopes,
it get crushed.
crushed violently and cruelly.
i should have known it was impossible.
coming to think of it,
im so embarrassed by my dumbness.
i feel so sorry for myself.
for being so pathetic.

careless whisper.

2009-08-27T23:01:00.000-07:00

school was fun today.
esp with mrs kong.
she very cute eh.
she wrote quiz as ' quize '
lol. so funny.
and still got other things luh,
very dumb. haha. :)
then zuhri came.
the hand up treatment.
woah, my hands were aching badly. ):
found mr zuhri's talk rather inspiring.
so im kinda glad in a way he came to talk to us? lol.
physics was horrble.
haha. didnt understand a single thing., ):
chem was great.
yuhan soo funny.
need to write chemical equation 100 times for tch.
lo. poor thing.
tch almost called me eh.
lucky. :D
dont sad luh yuhan. :)
and, i still love my anthony!
xoxo.

listen to this song.
its classic.

no one except gwen knows,
how empty i feel inside.

nobody but you.

2009-08-27T05:55:00.000-07:00

wow wow wow.
triple wow.
didnt know until now that,
my uncle's ex maid was a murderer,
and it was pulished on news.
triple wow agn.
the maid sufforcated another fellow maid for money.
and she was sentenced for death later on.
mummy said it happened when i was a lil child.
triple wow agn.
):

i love you.

2009-08-27T04:25:00.000-07:00

here's my baby singing.
:)

love love.

love love.

my beloved 倪安東 ( anthony ) <3

i love him. :)

spells love.

bye.

i miss you.

2009-08-27T03:52:00.001-07:00

hello.

2009-08-27T02:44:00.000-07:00

hello.
changed blog due to some problems.
shall update later.
bye.